Por fin!

Lo logré! Terminé el secundario, soy libre, soy libre! Ya planifiqué nuevas cosas y me siento FELIZ.
1- DIETA
2- NATACIÓN
3- FACULTAD

Además falta poco para Navidad, amo el mes de Diciembre!
Lalala~

Everything is going DOWN!

Bueno, cómo comenzar? A una semana de la "importante" fiesta de egresados que, supuestamente, todo el mundo espera con ansias, Shay se encuentra recluida en su habitacion, releyendo sus revistas de moda e imaginando que hermoso vestido podría haber llevado a la tan gloriosa fiesta... SI NO FUERA GORDA EN EXCESO. Años atrás, cuando la anorexia invadió mi mente y cuerpo, yo ya había imaginado todo un outfit mezcla punk rock con glam rock (suena mal, pero en mi mente se veia bien). Ahora, a ese hermoso cuerpo esqueletico y al outfit tan amado, agreguenle 66 kg. Basura, mierda, horror, esperpento, GORDA.

Adentro mio, vive una chica capaz de ser modelo, capaz de sportar dias sin comer y entrar hasta en la más minima prenda. Pero esta encarcelada en 66kg. de pura grasa.

Para sumarle otro annoying point, me preguntan mis compañeros si voy, o no voy, si voy, o no voy. Yo les digo que aun no se. Pero lo mas probable, lo mas seguro, lo mas obvio,es que no vaya. Y si voy tendre que ir armada de un cargamento de rivotril y una faja (?), y hacerme un vestido con... no se, papel higienico Scott?)digo ese porque es el mas largo, de 80mts, asi que capaz me haga la Lady GorDa y me vista de toilet paper!

Fuck.

Ser gorda APESTA. Ser inutil TAMBIEN. Ser inservible AUN MAS.

You and me We used to be together Everyday together always I really feel That I'm losing my best friend I can't believe This could be the end It looks as though you're letting go And if it's real Well I don't want to know Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts Our memories Well, they can be inviting But some are altogether Mighty frightening As we die, both you and I With my head in my hands I sit and cry Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts It's all ending I gotta stop pretending who we are... You and me I can see us dying...are we? Don't speak I know just what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't tell me cause it hurts (no, no, no) Don't speak I know what you're thinking I don't need your reasons Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't tell me cause it hurts! I know what you're saying So please stop explaining Don't speak, don't speak, don't speak, oh I know what you're thinking And I don't need your reasons I know you're good, I know you're good, I know you're real good Oh, la la la la la la La la la la la la Don't, Don't, uh-huh Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush darlin' Hush, hush don't tell me tell me cause it hurts

All right, well, I started a diet (again) so let's seehow it works. Actually, it depends all on me. It's not just about my looks: my health and self estime are in trouble. So I want to publish a goal. My weight NOW is 108kl. If I lose 3kl.in exactly 2 weeks, I'll buy that Tommy Hilfigher necklace I've been wanting since I was 14. I guess that if I save the money I could spend in food, I could buy it in two weeks. But I have to reach my goalfirst to buy it.
What else can I say? Oh, yeah. I'm ill, just a cold, but it's still annoying. Oh,and last Tuesday I went out shopping with my boyfriend and bought a whole new make up set, plussme sexy underwear. Mmm. After saying that I weight 108kl. sounds kinda stupid to have sexy underwear, but I like it anyway.
Wish me luck, hunnybees!
I'm waiting for your opinions, and I'll be reading you whenever I can (school is such a pressure, specially in senior year). Bye!

 

NO

NO

NO

NO

NO

tengo ganas de ir a la escuela hoy!

Rebeldes

en un


mundo de


Perfectos.

I was searching you were on a mission
Then our hearts combined like a neutron star collision
I have nothing left to lose
You took your time to choose
Then we told each other with no trace of fear that

Our love would be forever
And if we die, we die together
Will I, I said never
Cause our love would be forever

The world is broken, halos fail to glisten
We try to make a difference but no one wants to listen
Hail the preachers, fake and proud
Their doctrines will be cloud
Then they'll dissipate like snowflakes in an ocean

Love is forever and we’ll die
We’ll die together
Will I, I said never
Cause our love, could be forever

Now I’ve got nothing left to lose
You take your side to choose
I can tell you now without a trace of fear

That my love will be forever
And well die, we’ll die together
Will I, I will never
Cause our love will be forever.

Angry, angry, angry, ANGRY!

I mean, ALUBA? stfo!

I'm terribly fat, I know, but the skinny bitch inside me hates the stupidy of TV people of nowadays...

At least I follow my diet today, so that makes me a little bit happy. Hope I can get under 100kl. soon!

It's horrible feel yourself like something you don't look like. A monkey looks like a human, but it is still a stupid MONKEY. And right now, I AM the stupid monkey.

Girls, someone, help me feel better (without including food in the text).

XOXO, Elliana.

I won't cry

Heey, I'm back!
Volvi a escribiren este blog VIEJISIMO :D para
ehm
No se, quiero escribir, no jodas ¬¬


Si tu quieres ser feliz, en el limbo has de vivir!
Laralalaralalaralaralala

Peso: 105kl (bajemos, bajemos!)